Wednesday, March 23, 2005

I have a great sense of humor. I was wondering then, why I can't express it in my writing. Some of the authors' blogs I read have an innate ability to create funny posts. I don't think I've ever created even one funny post since I started this blog. I make jokes all day but I don't seem to put them into writing. I definately admire that ability in some writers.
Or maybe this blog just isn't about that. I don't know but I'm going to try and throw out a funny post just to see if I can. Don't know when it'll come but when the idea hits me I will log on and type it out!

Numbers game

So I'm wondering about how many companies I will have to send my resume to to get an interview. 1 in 30? Of that how many interviews will I have to go on before I get a job offer? 1 in 6? Of those job offers how many will I actually be interested in? 1 in 10?
I don't know, I've never had to do any of this before. This is all new. When I left college 3 years ago I started working at this company I am at right away. I had worked here part time over winter break and they had an opening. I had never had an interview. I knew someone at the company. Thus I never had to create a resume. Pretty cool huh? I've had this job for almost 3 years now and I've worked my way into a managerial position and I haven't even had to create a resume or go on an interview!

I'm going to treat the whole looking for a job experience like a numbers game. If I apply to enough places and go on enough interviews then eventually I'm sure I'll get something.

Now enough of talking about it. I really have to get off my ass and get started on this endeavor.


Now what I have to do is act quickly, create a resume for myself, and send it out to a couple of companies. If I get any interviews it would look much better if I currently have a job in hand when I go in there. I figure I have a couple of weeks till they find a replacement. I'm sure these weeks will go by fast though.

I feel much more relaxed now, like a huge burden has been lifted off my shoulders.

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

Notice given

I threw it down at work today. I told them that I want to leave because I have to focus on other things in my life. I will stay till they find a replacement for me and if necessary I will stay for a short period to train him/her.
It somehow turned into a medical reason for leaving though. It started out ast me wanting a change of scenery and feeling bored at work, which I am. After talking to my parents I explained how I'm always feeling tired and how I need to address the problem of my sleep apnea. My parents suggested that I explain this to my boss and make sure they understand that this is the reason that I am leaving.

When I spoke to my boss I explained my situation and how the reason I wasn't performing was because I was tired all the time due to lack of good sleep. I told him I couldn't handle having a job, going to school and addressing this problem all at the same time. I explained that I needed to focus on myself.

I would like to also start looking for another job, preferrably in the city. My father made it clear that it is much easier to find another job when you already have one in hand and I agree. If I do get a job offer I can always tell them that I can not start working for them for a month or so. That would give me enough time to address the issues with sleep apnea. I feel that if I don't address this issue the same scenario is going to play out again. That scenario being my days in college coming to and end because of my inability to focus on school, and now my inability to focus on work.

I really feel like this is a step in the right direction though. Time off would give me time to clear my head and take the steps necessary to get headed in the right direction. I have so many ideas, and things I want to do that I need to do whatever it takes to get the energy to do them.

This is going to be a turning point in my life. I will make sure of that. I'm going to be turning over a new leaf.

In other news: I'm going out with Kim now. We've been dating for a month. She's still a bit wacko, but that keeps me on my toes. Things have been worked out with Genine. The three of us hung out Sunday night for drinks and had a good time.

Friday, March 04, 2005


I'm having dinner tonight with Kim. The whole deal last week about not wanting to see me anymore was caused by Genine. She said that she used to like me and she was pissed Kim and I got together. Apparently Kim just sprung it on her last Wednesday night and Genine was taken aback by the whole thing. Apparently they talked the whole thing over and everything is cool now.
I guess we'll really see if everything is cool tomorrow night. We're all going to be at a lounge in the meatpacking district for Genine's birthday. We'll see how Genine acts when we're all hanging out.
Shit, I'm just tryin' to get mine. I don't need the rest of this bullshit...
I'm sure dinner tonight will be good. I just wish I had a place of my own to come back to in situations like this. We both live with our parents. Shit would just go down a lot easier, you know?

Reporting to an asshole

As I have been slacking at work over the past many months the president of the company during my annual review, told me that I will not be reporting to him anymore. I will report to the Chief Credit Officer. Now this guy doesn't know anything about IT, he's just the type of guy that is a pain in the ass. I guess the prez figures that this dude will stay on top of me.
So this guy stops by my office and checks up on me everyday like I'm a little kid. They think this is going to motivate me to start working harder. It is not going to do anything.
They sat me down with an HR person and this asshole and had me sign this contract that said that I had 3 months to complete the projects listed on it otherwise they would basically fire me.
This has still not been motivation enough for me to get off my ass. I just don't give a shit. I'm bored and there is a big world out there with lots of shit to discover. I don't think I should be sitting in an office working my ass off in the tradition of the 20th century. It isn't the 20th century anymore. Job opportunities and careers abound in the unlikliest of places. People make money doing the craziest of things. I don't want to stick with a traditional job anymore. It is draining me of my creativity and individuality.
Entertainers, snowboarders, girls gone wild video makers. People can make money in any number of ways. I don't want to sit in an office and take orders from a bunch of uncreative bafoons.