Wednesday, December 27, 2006

I just called this girl up who I've been thinking about for the last couple of weeks. I got blown off. She said Hi, I said hello. She said she was watching a movie and asked how I was. I said I hope I wasn't interrupting. She said she'd call back tomorrow. Is it wrong of me to want to talk to her when she isn't distracted? I don't think so. I thought I was being courteous and now I have relinquished all control.
I know she liked me and was throwing me a vibe for weeks. Yet when I asked for her number she hesitated and I had to pull it from her death grip. Hard to get? Is this girl just one of those that likes to flirt - I don't think so because I always stay away from that type. I think she is making me wait, now that I waited weeks to actually call her. The only reason I waited was because she said she was busy during the semester and that she would have some more time when the semester was over. I am frustrated of this shit. I just want to fuck her.

Monday, December 25, 2006

It's Christmas weekend. It was not a big Christmas at my house this year. It was just me and my mom tonight; she made lasagna for dinner. My dad is overseas until next week.
Tomorrow we're headed over to my mom's cousin's place in Connecticut.
All I want for Christmas is that beautiful, goofy, always distracted, loud, sweet, warm, inescapable, golden haired girl that was in my Physics class this past semester. She is the only reason I went to every class (twice a week) all semester. I did miss one class but that was to go to a Mets playoff game.
I'm planning on finally calling her on Tuesday night. I haven't decided wether to ask her to dinner or just for a cup of coffee. I know she would like to be treated like a lady and taken to dinner. My only doubt is that she might not know me well enough to come out to dinner with me. That is why I was thinking about asking her to meet me for a cup of coffee. I've yet to decide how to play this.
She's in my mind, first thing every morning when I wake up, and she is the last thing I think about before I go to bed. If I do get to know her I know that she will be more than a handfull, a fiery latin woman for certain. I think I'm ready to take it all on though.
My biggest fear really is that she is merely a proximity infatuation. I don't think that's the case. When I'm around her, all I can do is strain my ears to hear her voice, or turn my head so I see her out of the corner out of my eye. And I just want to touch that oh so soft skin of hers...

Friday, December 15, 2006

Finals time. Final projects due next week. Overloaded to the max. Waiting till the last minute. Cramming like crazy this weekend. Can't wait till it's all over next Friday.