Monday, September 27, 2004


I gave "Genine" a ride on the motorcycle yesterday. I met up with her in Queens for a movie and then I took her for a ride. She was really enthusiastic about the ride but a little scared as well. I went slow on a couple of streets and then headed over to the parkway to give her a taste of highway riding. She loved it but she was a little shaken up and visibly scared when I pulled her helmet off when I dropped her home. It was cool having her on the back though.
Her friend, "Kim" asked "Genine" if I would give her a ride too. I definately will cuz "Kim" is hot. I have to figure out how to work this without getting the other one jealous. That's probably not possible.

Monday, September 20, 2004


I have often times wondered what it would be like if I won the lotto. I have also wondered if I even deserve to win the lotto. I have a good life and I can have a great life if I so choose without the aid of a winning lotto ticket.
I wonder if I would quit my job or if I would continue working? I don't think I would tell anyone that I won. I would split the money with my parents and then sell everything that I own and go travel. I would definately go around the world a couple of times. Spend a nice amount of time in the tropics and just lounge around. Haven't figured out what I would do after that point. I really should spend some time and figure it out becuase if I do win the lotto I want to have a plan...

First week of classes

Today is my first day of math class. The class will be meeting every Monday and Wednesday evening. My english class on Saturday morning was not bad. It seems that the professor will be giving us the freedom to be creative and write about whatever we want.
I'm in that mood where I just don't want to do anything except go home, rent a couple of movies and veg out on the couch. I certainly don't want to be here at all. Am I just wasting my time here or what? Stuck in this office with no view of the outside world except through the 15" computer screen in front of me. Then as if the torture here isn't enough I have to go to a classroom and sit there for another 2 hours. I'm glad I can complain here because I am not really a complainer. I don't complain to anyone. I might sulk, but I don't complain.
On a side note, there is this chick that started working here just 1 month ago, I think she is Italian. She has got the tightest ass. She wears these lowcut pants that just hug those cheeks. She's got the short girl, fit, yet big ass.
Anyway, I've got a long week ahead of me. I wish I had more time to work out. I'm going to have to go to the gym after class at 8 pm. I'm already so tired at that point. I hate going to the gym so late.
Wish I could stay home, watch movies, smoke blunts, and then take 2 hours to go work out. That's all I would do. I would ride my motorcycle every now and then but just to find good spots to smoke weed. On Thursday, Friday, and Saturday nights I would go out and then bring the chicks back to my place to bang out. Sunday I would take a break from all the movie watching to watch football. Maybe if I find a rich wife I will be able to do all this. Some would call it lazy but at least there's a plan. It's not just laziness, I have laid down a plan for the whole week.

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

Late night phone call

For the past couple of weeks I've been hanging out with M and his 2 friends. One is the girl that I met at the bar 2 months ago and the other is her friend who M is talking to. We all went out last night to a bar and were hanging out. I was a little out of it because I had a long day. The one M is talking to is very pretty. After I got home yesterday she gave me a call to thank me for coming out with them last night. We ended up talking for quite a while. She was saying how I have been so quiet around them.
I have been quiet around them and the conversation led to an explanation of why I have been like that. That got me thinking. I guess basically what it comes down to is that I have a lot I am trying to focus on right now. Particularly myself and getting my education and career on the right track. It is hard for me to enjoy myself, have a good time, and open up to people when there is stuff on my mind. I am more closed off and don't let people in easily. I just have my own things to focus on right now. Is that so bad? Am I being selfish in not getting to know other people and not even spending that much time with my own friends.? Perhaps I am however I think it is something that I am working on overcoming.

Thursday, September 02, 2004


My mom told me last night that she is worried about me because I don't involve myself in anything related to the house. I don't do chores. I don't ask my parents how their day went. And I generally don't make too much conversation. You know what? She is right. I don't do all that stuff. I am self involved. I guess until I get my mind right I won't be able to give people around me the attention they deserve.