I am as confused as ever as to what to do in the coming months. I'm going to receive my associates degree in December. I've scheduled my classes so they all fall on the weekend. That leaves the weekdays open for me to do as I please. I can get a full time job, a part-time job, do freelance work, whatever.
I don't know what I'm going to do after December though. I had planned to travel and then when I come back next fall, start on my bachelor's degree. I would work and continue my education at the same time. But I've been thinking, what is the point of getting that degree. I agree it's needed to have something to fall back on but I can't help but wonder what it's all for. After I get the degree I'll get a job like the one I previously had. That does not sound too exciting.
I was thinking that I would want to do something like join the armed forces and learn to fly a helicopter or an airplane. At least there would be excitement in that. I would have to forsake earning a good salary but at least I would be doing something exciting. A bachelor's degree would still be needed if I wanted to be an officer.
I've become ever more confused and as usual scared of making any sort of move for fear that it might not be the right one. Indecisive.

Can't fall asleep

It's 3am and I can't get myself to fall asleep. I figured I would get up and write out a couple of my thoughts here on this blog. It's been a good outlet for me. Writing is something new that I've discovered that helps to alleviate the pressures of daily life. It's also a record of my thoughts to look back on. Through practice, just like anything else in life, I would like to better my writing skills. It's just like going to the gym and working out. Bi's and Tri's, Chest and Back, Legs and Shoulders, Abs and Cardio. Gotta keep at it to make it better.
I'm taking an English composition class, this my last semester at N.C.C. I'm looking forward to writing a couple of good insightful papers.

I stumbled onto an interesting MySpace profile that had a great video playing on the page. "Stand Back" by Linus Loves. Check out the link, it's a cool video and a great song. I've been listening to it all day over and over again and singing it over and over in my head. Isn't that a great feeling when you discover a great new song or album? I want to share it with everyone I know and have them listen to it all day like I have and love it.

Car Crash

I did some serious damage to my mom's car a couple of weeks back. I was picking her up from the airport as she was flying in from India. Due to the tremendous floods they had there her flight was delayed coming in and was set to arrive at Newark at 2am. I took off from my house at 1:30am. I made sure I took a shower before I left so I would feel refreshed. I thought about picking up some coffee from Dunkin' Donuts on the way but didn't. I took the Verrazona Narrows bridge and after that on the way to the Goethals bridge I fell asleep at the wheel. It all happened so fast. I was in the left lane and veered off to the left onto the grass. I woke up when I was going over the grass and tried to straighten the car out. The left side of it bumped the metal divider, first the front left side, and then the back left side. I was then able to gain control of the car and bring it to a halt. Unbelievable! The whole left side of the car was dented and scratched up. The car was running fine. It was all just exterior damage. I was able to continue to the airport and pick up my mom on time.

The thing is although I regret what happened I don't feel bad that it happened in my mom's car. Her car is a company car and the insurance is paid by her employer. She did feel embarassed to tell her boss what happened and have the insurance appraiser come and take a look at the car. The repair cost has come to $4,800. If it had been my car that happened to it would have driven my insurance premium up.

The car's been in the repair shop for the past week and a half so my mom has been using my car. I've been riding my motorcycle everywhere I go.

Most of the thoughts that ran through my mind after the accident were a mixture of what if's. What if there had not been a divider there for me to run into and I veered into oncoming traffic? What if I was on a bridge and my car was thrown off sending me tumbling into the cold, dark water below in the middle of the night? All in all, when you think about what all could have happened you realize that I didn't get such a bad deal.