I am an addict. I have to admit this to myself first and foremost. I am addicted to weed. I fell off the wagon the last 2 months of last year. Before that I had gone 3 1/2 years without smoking.
I want to smoke.
I don't know who to turn to for help right now. There is only one person that can help and that is me. I have to find the strenght within myself to say no everyday.
Even as I write this I am imagining how nice it would be to sit outside on the swing and smoke a blunt tomorrow. Not only am I imagining it but I am giving myself hope that maybe I will let myself smoke tomorrow.
Addiction is a horrible thing.